It was months ago since I last saw potatosalado so meeting her yesterday was a blessing. We ate brunch at Minsokchon, which is the Korean restaurant my family and I used to go frequently to until they closed. Turns out, they just moved places. Haha. Anyway, back to Zee, we caught up with each other’s busy lives these past couple months and agreed to continue pursuing a film project sometime soon. Had to leave early because Liezel and I needed to WOF test our dad’s and her car. Such a kill joy but yes, it was always a great chance to hang-out with Zee. Until next time.
Note: Went to Starbucks and bought Liezel a green tea frappe because she’s sick and it might help her feel better. Nyaha.
So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide
I want you to see me.
So look at me. Look at me.
It’s been a year, Audrey. I hope you’re doing well and that you’re looking after your family. We miss you.
Or perhaps it is that time doesn’t heal wounds at all, perhaps that is the biggest lie of them all, and instead what happens is that each wound penetrates the body deeper and deeper until one day you find that the sheer geography of your bones - the angle of your hips, the sharpness of your shoulders, as well as the luster of your eyes, the texture of your skin, the openness of your smile - has collapsed under the weight of your griefs.
I want myself back. I want to remember who i used to be. I want to find real happiness. I want to find the ‘old’ me ‘cause i really miss my old self. I want to find the road way back home to my soul which i left when i chose to fight for a battle that I’d lost. I am trying to win it back. But i don’t know how to, i can’t remember who i am. I can’t find myself because i am so lost. I completely lost myself the moment i surrendered myself.
I knew it. I’ll get fat by staying here in Hamilton. Haha.
Anyway, had a great time with xoxojagiya, icouldntgiveadamn and cheekysocialhermit earlier today. Went to town by 11:00am and found out that I was there early so I went to Oporto to get breakfast (because I was really starving and I could no longer stand straight). Then, I met up with the three of them at Starbucks for catch-up and to Daikoku for lunch.
We thought of going karaoke after lunch but the karaoke bar was closed so we spent time at the second-hand bookstore in town then went to The Bowlevard for an hour of bowling. Was really frustrated because I used to be good at it but earlier I couldn’t do well because I couldn’t remember how to play the game. Haha.
Hoping for another hang out next month with these guys. Thank you for spending time with me.
Because we want to show how cavalier and blasé we can be to the other person, little psychological games like ‘Intentionally Take Hours Or Days To Text Back’ will happen. They aren’t fun.
Naalala ko tuloy yung minsang nasambit sa akin ng dating malapit na kaibigan. Aniya, wala dapat hirap sa pagkakaibigan. Noong unang beses kong marinig iyon ay hindi ko alam kung sasang-ayon ako o kokontra. Ngunit sa mga nagaganap nitong mga nakalipas na buwan, maaring taon na, palagay ko ay buo na aking desisyon. Maray pang dai ko na hinapot.
Sa pagtaas ng dami ng taong gumagamit ng smart phone, napapansin ko ang pagtaas ng hirap para magkaroon ng maayos na usapan sa aking mga kaibigan. Hindi ko alam kung sadyang konektado ang dalawa o dahil sa distansiya na mayroon sa amin ay nagagawa na naming pabayaan ang aming kalambigitan. Ganun pa man, nakahahapo na rin ang walang kasaysayang tampuhan, suliranin, at marami pang bagay.
Kung ibig mo talaga na mamadig ang ating pagkamagkaibigan, at sana alam mo na iyon din ang aking nais, apulain na natin ang pagbatid ng mga pangangatwiran na alam naman nating hindi makatotohanan. Maging tunay naman tayo sa isa’t isa. Kung nasa panagano ka na makipagkita sa akin o wala, sabihin mo at hindi naman ako magmamaktol. Kung sabihin ko naman ito sa iyo, huwag kang magalit. Matatanda na tayo at wala na dapat tayong oras para sa ganun. Ang sa akin lang, ang gusto ko lang ay magkaroon pa rin tayo ng respeto sa isa’t isa. Kaya naman natin ibigay iyon, di ba? Hindi naman natin kailangan laging magkita, magsama, o mag-usap - pero sa totoo lang iyon talaga ang aking batid - ngunit paglaanan mo man lang ako kahit isang oras ng iyong linggo, masaya na ako. I miss you. Sana naman naiintindihan mo.
I want to continue being crazy; living my life the way I dream it, and not the way the other people want it to be.
I was thinking of attending the welcoming mass earlier this midnight but last night, my dad asked me if I wanted to come with him and my mum at Kecey and Jerome’s confirmation. Since there would be a mass that night and I thought the midnight mass was too late for me, I agreed and went to the Cathedral of the Blessed Virgin Mary with them and Kim.
After the almost three hours long mass, and I am not complaining here, our family went with the Tambogon family to town and had dinner at Silk Restaurant. Tito Lito shouted us dinner to celebrate his children’s confirmation and Climaco family joined us later on. Gee. I’m really getting fat here in Hamilton. Should head back up to Auckland soon. Nyaha.