Naalala ko tuloy yung minsang nasambit sa akin ng dating malapit na kaibigan. Aniya, wala dapat hirap sa pagkakaibigan. Noong unang beses kong marinig iyon ay hindi ko alam kung sasang-ayon ako o kokontra. Ngunit sa mga nagaganap nitong mga nakalipas na buwan, maaring taon na, palagay ko ay buo na aking desisyon. Maray pang dai ko na hinapot.
Sa pagtaas ng dami ng taong gumagamit ng smart phone, napapansin ko ang pagtaas ng hirap para magkaroon ng maayos na usapan sa aking mga kaibigan. Hindi ko alam kung sadyang konektado ang dalawa o dahil sa distansiya na mayroon sa amin ay nagagawa na naming pabayaan ang aming kalambigitan. Ganun pa man, nakahahapo na rin ang walang kasaysayang tampuhan, suliranin, at marami pang bagay.
Kung ibig mo talaga na mamadig ang ating pagkamagkaibigan, at sana alam mo na iyon din ang aking nais, apulain na natin ang pagbatid ng mga pangangatwiran na alam naman nating hindi makatotohanan. Maging tunay naman tayo sa isa’t isa. Kung nasa panagano ka na makipagkita sa akin o wala, sabihin mo at hindi naman ako magmamaktol. Kung sabihin ko naman ito sa iyo, huwag kang magalit. Matatanda na tayo at wala na dapat tayong oras para sa ganun. Ang sa akin lang, ang gusto ko lang ay magkaroon pa rin tayo ng respeto sa isa’t isa. Kaya naman natin ibigay iyon, di ba? Hindi naman natin kailangan laging magkita, magsama, o mag-usap - pero sa totoo lang iyon talaga ang aking batid - ngunit paglaanan mo man lang ako kahit isang oras ng iyong linggo, masaya na ako. I miss you. Sana naman naiintindihan mo.
“ I want to continue being crazy; living my life the way I dream it, and not the way the other people want it to be. ”
Veronika Decides to Die, Paulo Coelho
Thursday night was one of the best nights I had so far. Maybe because it’s my first time getting drunk i.e. remembering almost everything except on how I got to my friends’ flat to sleep. It was, for the lack of word, interesting to see drunk people and if if’s true that drunk people are honest, I love all the things I heard that night. Also, I woke up and found drunk message on my phone. It was from me telling myself bits of what happened. Haha. Anyway, I’m gonna miss you its-all-up-to-you. I can’t remember if I said goodbye when we left but see you soon!
the mind is filled with trillions upon trillions of memories. tiny ones. large ones. details upon details. some are faded. some vivid. elusive. beating. throbbing. sitting. waiting. hanging on one’s will. asking to be scoured. brought to the surface.
“ If you can love someone with your whole heart, even one person, then there’s salvation in life. Even if you can’t get together with that person. ”
1Q84, Haruki Murakami
Yesterday’s editing session of Kintsukuroi with Chia was both interesting and exhausting. It was a first for the two of us to work on a TVC and I am thankful for Dorthe (Directing) and Amit’s (Editing) guidance. Cutting down an almost three-minute commercial to one and a half was a real challenge. To make things harder for us, we got great performances from the actors and we couldn’t decide which scene to drop. In the end, I am extremely happy with the end results and I do hope for another experience on directing a TVC.
Happy International Sibling Day to my sisters! Sa dami ng pinagdaanan natin, masaya ako na kahit papaano eh nagkakasundo na tayo at hindi na madalas magtalo. Andami na nating makukwento sa mga magiging anak natin, lalo na si Kim! Hahaha.
My actors from yesterday’s Kintsukuroi shoot. Thank you guys for making the shoot fun and lively!
On the other hand, this morning, I got to talk to Dorthe and Larry about my directing yesterday. They told me that I was calm, a natural, and looks like I know what I want so I am not all over the place panicking. I thought I’ll be going home happy until I saw my rushes. Why?! They were not what I was expecting. I wanted to cry but I can’t stop laughing because of my misfortune. Now I have three days to come up with a plan to save my TVCs.
Kintsukuroi: Shoot Day
I knew once I entered the studio yesterday morning that I’ll be having a good day. The set looks amazing, the extras and my actors were dressed up already, and the crew were on the move.
It was my first time directing a TVC, working with a huge number of extras, and directing while not feeling well. However, I do hope, my sickness didn’t affect my directing. I am completely happy with the shots we have and thankful to everyone for their patience, dedication, and hard work. Editing and voice over recording starts today so I better get ready and go to uni now.
Kintsukuroi: Prep Day
Day 1 for my three-part TVC campaign shoot for Studio 3/Project Rose began yesterday, 9 April. We had our production meeting first thing in the morning and what I loved about that meeting is that we learned more about setting up call time for actors, especially if we have extras and we don’t have make-up artists to help them get ready. A five-hour preparation time/filming of cutaway scenes followed the meeting. Unfortunately, it was a slow day for us and I do hope that the crew will work fast today as today is the big day. I’m not nervous but I’m worried. My cough doesn’t help, either.